'Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,' says the LORD, who has compassion on you. Isaiah 54:10
Monday & Tuesday: I honestly cannot remember a single thing about Monday or Tuesday. Hmmmm... must have been pretty uneventful - that or I am blocking it from my memory. I am assuming I did my normal crazy day at work and then came home to cook, clean and crash. :)
Wednesday: Everything happened today. It was a huge emotional roller-coaster. Grant had his PT Wednesday instead of the usual Tuesday and it went a lot better than the week before - Grant seemed back to his old self (even though he is still sleeping restlessly at night). He is beginning to stand a little on his own - until he realizes he isn't holding on to anything and immediately plops down. After Grant's PT, the service coordinator came to the center to observe him. She called me later that day to fill me in on her observations. I always brace myself for her calls as they thrust me into quite an emotional state of mind. The service coordinator is very kind and supportive but says things very bluntly and doesn't offer much encouragement (but does offer lots of tips & advice). I love that she says things how they truly are - it just isn't always easy to hear. Anyway. Grant is making notable progress but still has a long ways to catch up. We need to start Grant on occupational therapy (OT) along with the physical therapy (PT) because his ligaments need some additional sensory stimulation. Also, the service coordinator suggested that Grant be tested for hypoglycemia (to put it simply: low blood sugar - hopefully not tied to diabetes). This hit me hard and the rest of the day I had to fight the urge to burst into tears. Then came the level two ultrasound in the afternoon to find out if baby Wesley's kidneys are OK and to check my amniotic fluid level. I am relieved to say that the doctor at the Women's Institute cleared Wesley of any kidney, bladder, throat, or internal organ issues. He appears to be very healthy and developing well. Yeah! My amniotic fluid is still high but nothing to be overly concerned about. This will continue to be monitored by my OBGYN doctor.
Thursday & Friday: Again - a blur. Work has been very busy and challenging but it makes me even more excited (if that is even possible) to get Grant and spend time with him and Aaron in the evenings. Oooo, I did FINALLY get to meet little Sam Schmidt! It was a quick (and scatterbrained - too much on my mind) visit but I was so glad to peek at cute little Sam.
Saturday: A day to catch up & reflect. Over the night we had some snowfall (a big event for our part of the Carolinas) and some freezing rain - a lethal combination. Fortunately our fridge & pantry are stocked with what we need (except we could use some more toilet paper...) and we are cozy in our warm house. We have so much to be thankful for. I am determined to praise God in good AND difficult times. As I was driving to my level 2 ultrasound appointment, I must admit I did let myself go and cry a good deal - I had to get it out (stress, tension, fatigue and sadness). While grieving, an unexpected picture popped into my head. It was the image of Jesus weeping with Mary outside of Lazarus' tomb (John 11:1-44). That story has such personal meaning to me. I sometimes wonder why God doesn't just heal Grant or take our pain away. I believe it is because He wants to use such situations to pull us and others closer to Himself and reveal the ultimate prize - truth, forgiveness and eternal peace. However, He still feels our pain and offers comfort and strength.
'Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.' Isaiah 43:1b-2
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